I'll call this my addiction awareness month. Alcoholism and drug abuse surround me. Good thing I will escape it.
Long drive back home tomorrow. Many things to add to my collection, however I'm rid of old things holding me down.
Couldn't sleep last night. Thinking about MM. Can't believe she's dead, two years ago. First girlfriend, first girl I ever really kissed actually. I can't help thinking why am I still alive when so many people I cared about are gone? I kinda wish now that I could've said goodbye to everyone. But I can't and I'll never see any of them again.
I wonder who will be next? I feel like my role of passive observer has passed to active participant. I'm just here to help and hopefully that's where this is headed.
Such a strange Christmas holiday. We kinda made it our own. It felt real, even with my drunk grandfather busting his alcoholic head open.
Should I even start my own family? Do I know how that might change things for me? I see a long, bleak future ahead but with a chance of humble fun that makes it worth it.
Sometimes you just need a really long walk to clear the head. One of those where you don't even realize you're walking and you don't know where you end up.
I'll light you up, friend, but return the favor and keep someone else warm.
The hard part begins again. This is what I live for though.
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