I can't shake this feeling.
I can feel it in my stomach.
Gnarling away at my insides.
Feels the same way in my mind.
Twisting and swirling.
Going this way and that way to the point that I feel sick.
Like you're on a roller coaster, when it's going it's fastest and for a split second you think it might run off the track. That sense of a loss of control. It's like those miliseconds repeated over and over and over for hours and hours. You can't escape it anymore. No matter what you try.
That feeling, it's guilt mixed with fear mixed with hopelessness. And you can't escape it.
Like I've said too many times before, I wish I possessed the articulative abilities to properly convey my ideas and feelings. But I don't. All I can do is describe my inability, I don't know how to deal with it.
So I leave it, hoping it someday gets better on it's own. It probably won't. The end.
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