A day without one, even when I try is wasted.
That is all I have to say, so I sleep with Ms. Disappointment tonight. A pretty thing with plump, pink lips. She's a doozy, but she does not give a shit. This sweet lover will carry me away to dreams, sad and depressing. Her dreams come true in different ways. Kill me in them and wake me up. She's still here when I leave for work. When I get home at night she's still lingering, waiting for me in my bed, naked and unashamed. This is all she does, waits for me. It's good to have consistency, but sad it's her. Beautiful temptress, please don't steal my night. I want someone else with me and you're not doing anything right. My lady in bed is a whore I don't need, I'm begging her to leave. I need someone to kick her out, bust her from her comfort in my blood. She doesn't need me and will find someone else. Another dream tonight and it's kill or be killed. I'll fight against the evil and either crush it or die. I'll protect my sweet girl, with everything I have.
I'm screaming at her to forget I'm alive. In her eyes I'm blind, I'm not even alive. Just a toy for her pleasure, pulls me out when she needs me. I'm pleading to her to give me back to someone I'm pleasing. Someone will love me, with or without you. Forget all your pointless pleading, I'm bleeding
Is this a risk? It was tonight. I needed the warmth, but instead felt stupid. I've been told to be so many different things. All I want to be is me. Let me be.
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