It's really odd, talking to friends that I may never talk to again about my suicide. These are people that I may not physically interact with again. I am going to try and meet them and say my goodbyes. It definitely helps to give a sense of closure to everything. Makes ending this easier.
I still have five years and yet all I can think about is saying goodbye to everyone that really meant anything in my life. It's hard because so many people have effected my life. I guess that means the Hags will have to be contacted. Despite the fact that I honestly hate those people, it has to be done at some point. I have to know why. This is the one thing I can't procrastinate towards. Weirdly, I have the most time of any project I've ever completed. I guess I can be more deliberate that way. But that doesn't make my task any easier. It's always hard to approach the people that hurt you. Confronting my parents will probably hurt the worst.
I've only told two of my good friends, they seem to understand it. Hopefully I can get that to the people who wont, like my parents, siblings and anyone that may consider my actions. They need to understand, eventually.
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