I am speechless. I've never felt such honesty. Both ways. It was good to be open. She trusted me. I let her in. What I dreamed about a few years ago, it's here.
It is a miracle, that in such sadness, chaos, and despair that something so bright and beautiful emerged. It's golden, tempered to perfection.
Only things so damaged would fit together so nicely. I will show her how things should be. I'm giving it up just for this chance. We will see where it goes.
But the magic of tonight will be enough for years. An understanding that is complex and at the same time simplistic. I want to be enough.
As things get better I leave behind these things and concepts, I throw them out for new ones. Clarity is much more satisfying than I imagined.
I feel like a different person now. A little more naked, a little less guarded. I knew that this would happen, I just did not realize it would be so intense.
Fate, keep playing your little games. Is this all you've got? You are going to have to do better than that. I think the love of it is much to great to deny.
I never know what to expect.
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