I feel like I messed up. I should have said it.
Chances are once in a lifetime. You always second guess yourself. All I could do was stare and smile like an idiot. Seeing her standing there like that tore me to peices. I touched every little peice of skin and I'm in love with every centimeter. Something must be wrong here, because I catch myself wandering into the future. I still say fuck it, just with optimism this time.
I know exactly where this will end up. I see where we're headed. I'm more than ok with it. I've had enough practice. I think it's time for the real thing. I don't care how stupid either of us will look. This is happening now and I won't remember a single regret after tonight. Because I will have no other.
I know what I deserve. If I can't have this, at least I know that I can be happy. In a way I will be sad if it ends, but I know I can make this good. It's so much easier than I imagined.
Laugh if you want, tell me that I am stupid. But I'm doing what I do best. If I do it right, everyone will be amazed. Even I can't believe the things I do sometimes.
Is it going to be like this forever?
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